I tried and it is only getting harder, those last 40 pounds are holding onto me like Jack in Titanic. It feels like they are never going to let go, but they have to go – they are just weighing me down and keeping me out of that outfit that is hanging in my closet.
So what should I do? I change what I am doing, my routine wasn’t giving me the results I wanted so I revamped it. No more walking for me, for the first time in my life I am running – I used to hate running and now I strive to get a few more minutes in when I get on the treadmill. I used to run like a turtle in peanut butter and it felt like I looked like I was having an emergency instead of doing something for my health, maybe it is all the same from the outside but I feel better. I allowed my exercise routine to evolve and return I have seen results.
Hence, we either evolve or remain, having the mindset that there it is alright to be uncomfortable with change but that change leads to growth is important. Having a positive point of view from the onset is hard, when I realized I had to run it turned me off completely. I dreaded the thought of jumping up and down, having people see me struggle, the severed meniscus in my knee may cause pain and I just didn’t want to. So I did what I usually do, I got in the treadmill and started quietly cursing through the first 20 minutes and then realized that I had it for done 20 minutes. Then I realized that I had cursed for a whole 20 minutes! I needed to stop cursing so much and now, I wasn’t going to hate running because I did something I thought I couldn’t do. I smiled, my friend walked over to me as I was pouring in sweat and gave me a big high five and then informed me that by the end of the month I was going to be doing double that time. D’oh! I thought about it and informed myself that I could do it and I would push myself to further my goal each day. The adage is true, if you want different results you are going to have to do something different. I run for almost an hour now, 4 pounds down. Whew!
Don’t turn away from the challenges, embrace the opportunity to grow. We often doubt our abilities, but how did you get all the way to where you are without all the hurdles that you have had to endure? Comfort yourself through the uncomfortable moments in the knowledge that you are continuing to be molded for greater things and greater goals. There is power in pushing through and it helps to see the realities of our defiance in wanting to evolve. That defiance leads you to where you want to be and staying positive helps you in those moments where you just want to give up. You choose, either evolve or remain. Big hug!